the star that wasn't there

inspired by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry's "Le Petit Prince."

Tilt your neck to the sky, stars are out brightly
It’s your personal show, playing theatres nightly
Such is what you see, such is what you know
And such as you accept it; it’s the secret of the show
For as much as you may like them, stars can deceive
The news doesn’t travel quick enough to receive
News to replace your expectation with confusion instead
With the knowledge that star you see is dead

Tilt your neck, stare into my eyes
Expect what you’d like, but hear no cries
What boy you expect? He is no longer here,
There is a man now, this much is clear
The message has traveled straight to your brain
I smile back at you, there’s no need to explain
News to replace your expectation with confusion insteadWith the knowledge the boy you knew is only in your head

back to high school

It's not always the most obvious step
When you know what's going on
When you know you're both there
But you know there's something wrong
We're just two lonely people
Living in the city, oh
I was kind of hoping we could change that
Won't you come over, oh

[Chorus]
And I thought high school was over,
And we were all done
With seventh grade sock-hops
And life was so fun
So why is it so hard,
To tell you I like you?
All I ever wanted to say to you

I'm trying so hard
To send a signal to you
But you must not be looking my way
It's kind of hard to know what to do
Gotta be a man, say it now
What's the worst that could happen to me?
I promise I'm not weird
And I just thought that maybe...

[Chorus]

I don't know, I'm sorry
I'm just having trouble, trouble
Telling you what's on my mind
So you should know, oh

[Chorus]

Miles and miles

It’s not because I don’t love you
And it’s not because you’re not on my mind
It’s not because I’ve forgotten you
It’s not because I think you’re unkind

You know I love you, oh I do
I wish I wasn’t here sometimes
I grew up where you are, that’s who
I am and where my roots are at all times
You’re miles and miles and miles away
Yes, I know that I am too
But I gotta tell you why I’m here
It’s the least that I could do

[Chorus]
I’m here for myself,
I’m here for my dreams,
And no matter how selfish it seems (It seems)
I just wanted to
Let you know
There’s no other way…
It could be

I’m not gonna lie, there’s nights that I cry
It’s not like I’m happy every day
I’m not like my transition was smooth as ice
Don’t know how long I’ll stay here anyway
But seriously, for what I want
I couldn’t get any of it back home, no
And I’m finding myself more and more
And seriously, sometimes I just don’t know

[Chorus]

You know I love you, oh I do
I wish I wasn’t here sometimes
You’re miles and miles and miles away
Oh, but I know I am too

[Chorus]

Au revoir

On commence à la première année
C'est la raison de tous ces journées
Si j'avais un dollar pour chaque mémoire
Je pourrais acheter un œuvre de Renoir
Rendu à la quatrième, je pouvais voir
Tous les expériences que j'allais avoir
On est rendu si loin, mais je ne sais pas
C'est trop vite, trop vite pour moi

[Refrain]
Il faut finir
Ce qu'on commence
J'ai si tant rêvé
Et ma vie qui s'annonce
Je m'excuse
D'avoir partir
Mais je dois aller
Je dois partir d'ici

Tout le monde alentours commence à changer
Ça me dérrange, mais je veux le cacher
Rendu à la neuvième, je ne savais plus
Je me sentais si triste, et un peu confus

Janvier, février, mars,
La vie s'écroule encore
Avril, mai, et juin,
Je ne t'oublierai alors
Juillet, août, septembre,
Rêver, penser, c'est de l'amour
Octobre, novembre, décembre,
Je me rappellerais toujours
[Refrain x2]

God's Reason

I looked outside my window this morning
Tried to ask myself why the sun was there
But more and more, what I am finding
Is that really I just don't care
I know that there's God, he's up in the sky
But what does that do for me?
Every single day, when poor kids die,
Can't God wake up and see
Oh, I'm told in church that he's the Saviour,
I'm told in church that he's everything
If you listen to him, he'll change your behaviour
Of the Kingdom of the world, I guess he's King

[Bridge]
'Cause as I see on the news, a building meets a Boeing
I wonder where the hell, God's love is going
Oh, I could stand all day, asking the sky
Why do people have to die

[Chorus]
I guess the only reason
That I can really think of
Is that if God was always trying
To prevent us from living
Then life would be boring
And from what I am seeing
Though we'd lose a few people along the way
If we could live for ourselves we'd be OK
And maybe that's God's reason
For people dying...

Oh

Then the dules of doves fly from the sun
And suddenly everyone understands
There is now salvation for everyone
I don't get it, someone please take my hand
My grandmother died of cancer last year
She meant so much to me
My frustration grew, tear by tear
Until my eyes weren't able to see
And I looked to the sky
And I looked to the ground
I couldn't see why
But now this is what I found

[Bridge & Chorus x2]

Spring Summer Fall

It's springtime, with this girl
I've known her for a little while
Her legs, they twirl
And her mouth, it smiles
It's just beginning, like a flower
In the springtime,
And the longer hours
My feelings, I cannot mime
'Cause it's all new to me
She's all new to me
And when I see her,
I can't help but be happy
'Cause before her,
My life was so crappy
And now, I've got a reason
Got a good reason
To get up
In the morning

(Pre-chorus)
But maybe if I had known before
That that girl was gonna crush me
And maybe before leaving that door
I could open my eyes and see
I was running into a trap
I have screamed a million "fucks"
'Cause I'm feeling like crap
And this really really sucks

(Chorus)
'Cause I've been deceived
In spring, summer, fall
And I'm so relieved
That I'm finished with it all
'Cause those seasons lead me wrong
What started well just crashed
And I'm tired of this song
Can somebody just get me smashed
Can somebody get me smashed

It's summer, with this girl
I've known her for quite a while
I have given her, a whirl
She always, makes me smile
'Cause it's when the sun shines
That she is most pretty
As the clouds fly by in nines
The fields are green in the city
'Cause it's all new to me
She's all new to me
And now that I know her,
I can touch her pretty face
My sadness is over
I feel happy in any place
Any place
At all
With her

(Pre-chorus & Chorus)

And now as the leaves fall off the trees
I'm falling to my knees
Wondering why the hell
Why I once felt so well
Her lovely face in my memory
Is too painful to really see
It's blurred and scarred and filled with deceit
She was the hunter and I was the meat
So blind I was, so unknowing
Through my eyes, my pain is showing
And when you feel like this, you just wanna die
It's pretty shitty to be left for another guy...

(Pre-chorus & Chorus)

END - The latest from joelScriyl!

A mother's bed-time prayer

A mother's prayer to her child before bed:

Put yo head on the pillow and start to drift away
Get the fuck to sleep, you need it for the next day
Lullaby my ass, you can count some fuckin' sheep!
Just close your precious eyes and get the fuck to sleep
No looking at the wall, absolutely no hesitation
I better not catch you doin' any masturbation
Just start to drift away, sweet dreams in your head
Have fun cleanin' yo sheets if you piss in yo bed

~Amen~

The Chocolate Rap

Put it in yo mouth, don't you love da sensation?
Cho-co-late is betta than a sexual relation
Unwrap the bar, just break off a piece
Eatin' dis shit won't make you obese
It's made with real milk, made with the best
Chocolate's da bomb, taste better than the rest
Don't care if you from France, don't care if you from Turkey
Da real shit in town be dis muthafuckin' Hershey

The Chicken Rap

Boc boc boc, who dat be?
Homie chicken in da house from da K-F-C
Representin' da coop, all dose chickens are winners
But don't no faith in them 'cause they gon' be yo dinner
Representin' all da brothaz who be rockin' the beak
Representin' those who squawk, who cannot speak
Homie chicken is da best and that's what he'll be
Hangin' in da hizzouse with Homie C